Reflection on competition

Triggers, self-worth and why I need to change my mindset around competition or not do it. I never knew I was competitive until I started CrossFit as a sport. When my first opportunity to participate in a competition came up, I was faced with the fact I REALLY wanted to do well, and well in that context meant better than others. I put so much pressure on myself that the anticipation made me nervous almost to the point of being sick, and although I had fun during the day, it le

Facing failure and frustration

Reaction and action: choosing between self-sabotage and growth. Overindulged and now feeling awful? Bad day at the gym and feeling weak, incapable? Whenever I “fail”, whether it’s eating too much cake, drinking too much, or being unable to perform a specific movement in CrossFit, my first response is guilt (when I did something I shouldn’t have done) or frustration (when I can’t do something). I am getting very involved emotionally, and I can internally rant for quite a long


Sometimes we spend so much time looking at what we need to improve that we can't see progress and appreciate how far we've come. Hitting a new technical difficulty in CrossFit is always hard. Just when you think you are getting better, a new weakness shows up. I suppose it is part of the fun, there is so much to learn that you never get bored. But with the wrong mindset, a new difficulty can easily turn into "oh look, another thing I suck at!". I see it in a lot of people at

First competition: Four At War

Bloody intense, packed with adrenaline and an emotional roller-coaster. Well done team for surviving this day. I couldn’t really expect what was about to come: the pressure, the adrenaline, the intensity of those short workouts. Being crammed in a little space, trying to keep communicating with each other in the team and trying to hear our judge in the chaos of the shouting crowd and loud music. There were a lot of distressing moments during the day: - When all the plans went