Reaction and action: choosing between self-sabotage and growth. Overindulged and now feeling awful? Bad day at the gym and feeling weak, incapable? Whenever I “fail”, whether it’s eating too much cake, drinking too much, or being unable to perform a specific movement in CrossFit, my first response is guilt (when I did something I shouldn’t have done) or frustration (when I can’t do something). I am getting very involved emotionally, and I can internally rant for quite a long
After falling into overindulging again and feeling awful for it, I am trying to find out why it happened and what needs to change. I had another weekend of “overdoing it”. It was a long weekend away from home, with a lot of drinking and a lot of delicious-very-high-in-calories foods. I was happy while eating it, I felt no guilt whatsoever. In my bliss there was no moderation. Looking back, I can identify a pattern: “It's your cheat time so eat what you can because you don't k
A work seminar and a story of pasties and sugar. It is 2:30 in the morning. I've been tossing and turning in my bed for almost an hour now. Today was a work related seminar and I had at least 6 coffees, two redbulls, alcohol and ate A LOT of things mostly made of sugar. So naturally, I woke up with a bad stomach, unable to go back to sleep, wondering why I'm doing that to myself.
I eat clean most of the time and I don't starve my body. I mostly have what we could call a heal