Reflection on competition

Triggers, self-worth and why I need to change my mindset around competition or not do it. I never knew I was competitive until I started CrossFit as a sport. When my first opportunity to participate in a competition came up, I was faced with the fact I REALLY wanted to do well, and well in that context meant better than others. I put so much pressure on myself that the anticipation made me nervous almost to the point of being sick, and although I had fun during the day, it le

Facing failure and frustration

Reaction and action: choosing between self-sabotage and growth. Overindulged and now feeling awful? Bad day at the gym and feeling weak, incapable? Whenever I “fail”, whether it’s eating too much cake, drinking too much, or being unable to perform a specific movement in CrossFit, my first response is guilt (when I did something I shouldn’t have done) or frustration (when I can’t do something). I am getting very involved emotionally, and I can internally rant for quite a long


Sometimes we spend so much time looking at what we need to improve that we can't see progress and appreciate how far we've come. Hitting a new technical difficulty in CrossFit is always hard. Just when you think you are getting better, a new weakness shows up. I suppose it is part of the fun, there is so much to learn that you never get bored. But with the wrong mindset, a new difficulty can easily turn into "oh look, another thing I suck at!". I see it in a lot of people at

Being social and calories

I love food, alcohol and sharing it with people. But can one be a healthy fit hedonist? "I had a few month free from 'feeling fat' but indulgent holidays and weekends away ended up in a significant weight gain. My jeans are way too tight and it makes me feel bad. The problem is I can’t drastically reduce my daily calorie consumption because I’m still eating to train, and I train quite a lot. I know the obvious solution is to be careful with sugar - aka deserts and alcohol - w